today was the first day back. i think i technically have two semesters left before i graduate with a bachelor's in history. i'm in the process of looking into what to do after graduation (getting a real job, going to grad school, being an adult, etc). basically all of the scary stuff that i really don't want to deal with yet. however, this is going to be a busy semester with a lot of work but it's looking to be really good. here is the breakdown.
early modern ireland- my first class, 10:30 to 11:45. my professor gets a lot of haters and does talk about them but this guy has changed the way i look at school. he makes you think for yourself and refuses to spoonfeed his students, which is how i think classes should be taught. he also makes me laugh when he name drops warren zevon. it'll also be great to see the new kids squirm when he picks on them to give answers.
women and christianity in antiquity and middle ages- 12 to 1:15. there are a lot of kids i know in this class, which is good. i cannot understand the teacher when he speaks, which is not good. this class is going to have a LOT of reading but i think overall, it's going to balance out and be tolerable.
french language- 1:30 to 2:45. our professor wasn't even here today, which amused me. our book costs 200 bucks, which is not good. i'm excited for this because i really do want to learn how to speak french but i know that i'm going to have to work really hard at it.
modern japan- 3 to 4:15.this class holds the potential to be really fucking awesome. i love japan and the history that lies behind the country and our teacher is pretty cool, a little hard to understand, but cool. there's about 50 kids in the class, which ought to be whittled down soon, but it holds a lot of potential.
that is the basic gist of my school schedule and i'm excited to see what happens with it.
Thursday, January 8, 2009
Saturday, December 13, 2008
Monday, December 8, 2008
stressorama
finals are this week and while my stress level is normally all around out of hand, it's being pushed through the roof this week. my thing right now is trying to ignore it and not worry too much but being a natural born worrier, it's very hard to do.
after my last final thursday, the fun of the break begins. thursday night, i get to have dinner with friends i haven't seen in a while due to varying lives. friday is dim sum and we the kings with my-linh and my little sister. saturday, i leave for atlanta until the 17th and on the 19th, my-linh and i are throwing a vip party at howl at the moon. it makes me feel special for an iota of a second to know i get to be vip for once.
life is generally good right now aside from the crazy amount of stuff and stress but it's all good in the neighborhood.
after my last final thursday, the fun of the break begins. thursday night, i get to have dinner with friends i haven't seen in a while due to varying lives. friday is dim sum and we the kings with my-linh and my little sister. saturday, i leave for atlanta until the 17th and on the 19th, my-linh and i are throwing a vip party at howl at the moon. it makes me feel special for an iota of a second to know i get to be vip for once.
life is generally good right now aside from the crazy amount of stuff and stress but it's all good in the neighborhood.
Thursday, November 27, 2008
guilty pleasure #1
i love ebay. i love it so much more than anyone could ever know. i don't have a credit or debit card because i know that if i did have one in my possession, internet shopping would easily put me into debt and ebay would be the primary culprit. the random mish mash of everything on the site keeps me occupied for hours and the fact that i have about ten stores saved to my favorites that i check every few hours just to see if new stuff has been put up says a lot about my obsession.
the vintage stuff on it gets me.
the deals get me.
ebay gets me.
such a guilty pleasure.
Saturday, November 15, 2008
i'm a teapot, letting off my steam
in my opinion, i think that everyone has someone in their life that they just can't seem to stay away from. no matter what happens and how far away you are from them, how long it's been without talking to them, you can always slip right back into the same old routine with them and feel like it's been five minutes when it could have been years.
i know who that person is for me and i know it's not the best thing for me to keep going back. it's been close to four years now that we've been playing this back and forth game and every time i get sucked back into it, i always end up being hurt. i don't even know if he realizes what he does to me or the effect that he has on me or that i always end up falling for him but it sucks every time because i tell myself that things will change and they never do.
he's coming back around again and i feel myself wanting to revert to the old pattern but i'm tired of it. i'm tired of the tears that i always end up shedding, the pain i always feel and it's all my own doing, it's all my own fault that i let myself get like that. so now, things are going to change.
i've finally realized that i need to put my priorities first, at least in some form. i'm protecting myself and not allowing myself to revert to old ways and not slipping into the way things were. i can have him as a friend but nothing more. i know this now after a lot of soul searching and conversations with friends. it's for the best and although it sucks a little, i know it wouldn't be a healthy thing for me to keep reverting to this pattern.
so, there is a person in our lives that we always seem to find coming back in and out, over and over, but only we're the ones who decide in what aspect we allow them in. and for me, i've finally decided to set my foot down. and i feel better for it.
i know who that person is for me and i know it's not the best thing for me to keep going back. it's been close to four years now that we've been playing this back and forth game and every time i get sucked back into it, i always end up being hurt. i don't even know if he realizes what he does to me or the effect that he has on me or that i always end up falling for him but it sucks every time because i tell myself that things will change and they never do.
he's coming back around again and i feel myself wanting to revert to the old pattern but i'm tired of it. i'm tired of the tears that i always end up shedding, the pain i always feel and it's all my own doing, it's all my own fault that i let myself get like that. so now, things are going to change.
i've finally realized that i need to put my priorities first, at least in some form. i'm protecting myself and not allowing myself to revert to old ways and not slipping into the way things were. i can have him as a friend but nothing more. i know this now after a lot of soul searching and conversations with friends. it's for the best and although it sucks a little, i know it wouldn't be a healthy thing for me to keep reverting to this pattern.
so, there is a person in our lives that we always seem to find coming back in and out, over and over, but only we're the ones who decide in what aspect we allow them in. and for me, i've finally decided to set my foot down. and i feel better for it.
Thursday, November 13, 2008
i prefer blogging in bullet points. mind you, they always end up being massively elongated bullet points but it seems to be my style so here goes the random bullet point bloggy bits of boring information for the past few days.
- ice skating on a lumpy rink is not the best thing your school can provide. i have the scraped up arm and bruised pelvis to prove this point.
- they need to make mini zambonis for mini ice rinks.
- i want to be paid now so i can buy a yo gabba gabba shirt from hot topic. best kids show ever.
- i'm addicted to twitter like no one's business now. i had once proclaimed that i would never jump on that bandwagon but i have and i do not want off.
- the betsey johnson outlet store is the best thing i have ever seen. even better is that the salesgirl has me in her book now so i get notified of sales before the public.
- victoria's secret love spell is the best scent created by man.
- all cupcakes should come with a pudding center. it makes the whole confection that much cooler in my book.
- boys create a crapload of unnecessary drama without even meaning to half the time. i generally dislike the majority of them at the moment.
- i have become a hermit in my own household due to insane family members. i hate leaving my room just to pee because i'll get bombarded by the questioning squad of whether or not i need anything. i'm 21, i think i know how to get a glass of water by now, thaaaanks.
i think that about covers it
- ice skating on a lumpy rink is not the best thing your school can provide. i have the scraped up arm and bruised pelvis to prove this point.
- they need to make mini zambonis for mini ice rinks.
- i want to be paid now so i can buy a yo gabba gabba shirt from hot topic. best kids show ever.
- i'm addicted to twitter like no one's business now. i had once proclaimed that i would never jump on that bandwagon but i have and i do not want off.
- the betsey johnson outlet store is the best thing i have ever seen. even better is that the salesgirl has me in her book now so i get notified of sales before the public.
- victoria's secret love spell is the best scent created by man.
- all cupcakes should come with a pudding center. it makes the whole confection that much cooler in my book.
- boys create a crapload of unnecessary drama without even meaning to half the time. i generally dislike the majority of them at the moment.
- i have become a hermit in my own household due to insane family members. i hate leaving my room just to pee because i'll get bombarded by the questioning squad of whether or not i need anything. i'm 21, i think i know how to get a glass of water by now, thaaaanks.
i think that about covers it
Friday, November 7, 2008
random bits
-i like spiral notebooks. they keep all my thoughts and ideas neatly bound
-grapes are a food of opportunity
-jank is a fun word
-basketball sucks on tv but is awesome to watch in person
- just because you can wear something doesn't mean that you should
- i have nothing better to write about today so this is filler
-grapes are a food of opportunity
-jank is a fun word
-basketball sucks on tv but is awesome to watch in person
- just because you can wear something doesn't mean that you should
- i have nothing better to write about today so this is filler
Monday, November 3, 2008
i don't feel much like blogging today but still felt that i needed to write something. what i really want to say, i can't bring myself to say in a public forum like this so it stays in my notebook.
it's hard to express how i really feel sometimes. it's how it is for everybody.
today is a case of the blahs.
it's hard to express how i really feel sometimes. it's how it is for everybody.
today is a case of the blahs.
Sunday, November 2, 2008
insomnia is a crap thing. wanting to sleep and not being able to is horrible. i've had sporadic spells of this off and on for the past few years due to schoolwork and general life throwing my sleeping patterns and my body out of whack. i have gotten back into another jag of not being able to sleep until 3, 4, 5 in the morning and then sleeping either too little or too much.
i think that the worst part about not being able to sleep is that with nothing else to do, my mind starts to wander and it's not necessarily a good thing. it's not that i'm thinking bad thoughts, it's just that i have about fifty million things flying around in my head at once that crash into each other and run a muck and create all of these different tangents that create more thoughts and when that happens, i normally am in bed with no notebook around me to write any of it down to try and make sense of.
my thoughts and ideas are nothing new, i know. everything i possibly think of has probably already been presented somewhere by someone in some manner but with everything crashing around here all the time, it's hard to think straight. i need notebooks to carry with me to write down everything i think or hear or see or what strikes me. hell, i need stock in that.
even now, the lack of sleep is bringing about the crazy talk. lolcat time to fit the mood.
i think that the worst part about not being able to sleep is that with nothing else to do, my mind starts to wander and it's not necessarily a good thing. it's not that i'm thinking bad thoughts, it's just that i have about fifty million things flying around in my head at once that crash into each other and run a muck and create all of these different tangents that create more thoughts and when that happens, i normally am in bed with no notebook around me to write any of it down to try and make sense of.
my thoughts and ideas are nothing new, i know. everything i possibly think of has probably already been presented somewhere by someone in some manner but with everything crashing around here all the time, it's hard to think straight. i need notebooks to carry with me to write down everything i think or hear or see or what strikes me. hell, i need stock in that.
even now, the lack of sleep is bringing about the crazy talk. lolcat time to fit the mood.
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
halloween. my favorite holiday of the year. but costuming is an issue now. a vast majority of the adult costumes are either too kiddy or too slutty for my tastes. i can't gallavant around town in a bikini and fishnets. i'll look like britney spears at the vma's, a chubby trainwreck. hmm, possible costume idea.
anyway, i digress. so what is a girl to do? my first costume idea might possibly fall through because i'm still waiting for a dress to be sent in the mail that i can use and the backup plan, as of now, is to be katy perry. that damn katy perry. well, if i have to rely on it, at least i can make up good parodies.
lolhamster tiem.
anyway, i digress. so what is a girl to do? my first costume idea might possibly fall through because i'm still waiting for a dress to be sent in the mail that i can use and the backup plan, as of now, is to be katy perry. that damn katy perry. well, if i have to rely on it, at least i can make up good parodies.
lolhamster tiem.
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
random bits
sleep is my friend and my enemy. groggy all day and now i'll be up all night. rad.
i'm thinking of dying my hair again. i change hair color a lot.
homework is the devil.
i leave you with a puppy.
i'm thinking of dying my hair again. i change hair color a lot.
homework is the devil.
i leave you with a puppy.
Saturday, October 25, 2008
sometimes, you have the kind of nights that make you feel really good about life. last night was one of them.
when i got to backbooth, i ran into two friends of mine that i haven't seen in probably a year of two, jay and gabe. so we hung out during the show and what a show, it was.
the first band was this group called j roddy and the business. the bassist alone had my attention with his pornstache and his long, curly hair. i was like a horse with blinders on for their set, just mesmerized by this guy. decent music, hilarious set but it was unintentionally so, which makes it that much better.
next was william elliott whitmore and holy lord, was he fantastic. he did a few songs just singing, no instruments and then he busted out his banjo and his guitar. he also debuted some new songs from his next album and by far, my favorite is going to be 'johnny law'. he finished up and found out he still had twenty minutes so he took requests and i hollered for him to play 'take it on the chin', which is my favorite of his songs. he started playing it and halfway through, he realized that he forgot how it went so he had to get help from people. amazing.
after him was murder by death. they wore robot costumes and adam thurla, the lead singer, told the worst robot jokes i have ever heard. but they played the best setlist possible with songs from all of their albums and some of my favorite.
i do think the highlight of my evening, though, was meeting william elliott whitmore while he was drunk as hell and him continuing to offer to buy me drinks with me politely refusing. great guy, lots of fun and a great hugger but very persistent.
i had such an amazing night last night and i'm so glad that i felt decent enough to go. i'm even wearing the shirt i bought last night because i'm trying to hold this feeling a little longer. i wish i could go to shows for a living. what a life that would be.
oh, just for the lolz. here's a cat macro.
when i got to backbooth, i ran into two friends of mine that i haven't seen in probably a year of two, jay and gabe. so we hung out during the show and what a show, it was.
the first band was this group called j roddy and the business. the bassist alone had my attention with his pornstache and his long, curly hair. i was like a horse with blinders on for their set, just mesmerized by this guy. decent music, hilarious set but it was unintentionally so, which makes it that much better.
next was william elliott whitmore and holy lord, was he fantastic. he did a few songs just singing, no instruments and then he busted out his banjo and his guitar. he also debuted some new songs from his next album and by far, my favorite is going to be 'johnny law'. he finished up and found out he still had twenty minutes so he took requests and i hollered for him to play 'take it on the chin', which is my favorite of his songs. he started playing it and halfway through, he realized that he forgot how it went so he had to get help from people. amazing.
after him was murder by death. they wore robot costumes and adam thurla, the lead singer, told the worst robot jokes i have ever heard. but they played the best setlist possible with songs from all of their albums and some of my favorite.
i do think the highlight of my evening, though, was meeting william elliott whitmore while he was drunk as hell and him continuing to offer to buy me drinks with me politely refusing. great guy, lots of fun and a great hugger but very persistent.
i had such an amazing night last night and i'm so glad that i felt decent enough to go. i'm even wearing the shirt i bought last night because i'm trying to hold this feeling a little longer. i wish i could go to shows for a living. what a life that would be.
oh, just for the lolz. here's a cat macro.
Friday, October 24, 2008
william elliott whitmore
william elliott whitmore. how i love thee. your soulful voice. your tattoos. the love you have for your podunk state of iowa. the passion and pain we can hear in your voice when you sing. i can't wait until i finally get to see you tonight and enjoy your music in person instead of through my dinky ipod headphones or the shaky sound system in my car.
oh, and murder by death.
you're not too shabby either.
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
so today was my shopping trip because a) i like shopping by myself and b) i wanted new stuff. let me just say, this stuff i found at target from soap and glory cosmetics is my new favorite thing.
it's supposed to firm your skin and rid you of cellulite but even if it doesn't accomplish its purpose, i'm going to keep buying it because it makes my skin super soft and it leaves your skin tingly and cool, which is nice. a plus for you, soap and glory gel stuff.
it's supposed to firm your skin and rid you of cellulite but even if it doesn't accomplish its purpose, i'm going to keep buying it because it makes my skin super soft and it leaves your skin tingly and cool, which is nice. a plus for you, soap and glory gel stuff.
Monday, October 20, 2008
Sunday, October 19, 2008
procrastination
this is, by far, my worst habit. i have a tendency to put off the task i'm supposed to do until i absolutely have to do it or i find something else to do instead. case in point: i'm supposed to read thirty pages of an essay and take notes on it for my medieval ireland class. mind you, i have about 17 pages done now but instead of sitting down and doing it all in one go, i've cleaned my room, read three magazines, drank two cups of tea, read a book, broke a nail and bandaged it up and internet browsed.
sometimes, it makes me wonder if i have a.d.d. or something because i can't sit still and i can't focus half the time. it's slightly frustrating to not be able to sit still. like even now, i just got up and paced around the hallway and am organizing my photobucket and looking for lolcats. yeesh. but i will leave you with my favorite lolcat for the day.
sometimes, it makes me wonder if i have a.d.d. or something because i can't sit still and i can't focus half the time. it's slightly frustrating to not be able to sit still. like even now, i just got up and paced around the hallway and am organizing my photobucket and looking for lolcats. yeesh. but i will leave you with my favorite lolcat for the day.
Friday, October 17, 2008
life update
midterms came back and i did tolerable. one a, one b, one c plus and one c. not my best ever but in the classes i got c's on, i have a lot more chances to make up for the grades.
i babysit five days next week, which is awesome, because it means i'm gonna have fat pockets for a bit but i'm also going to three concerts next week. on thursday, i'm going to see gaslight anthem at park ave for free and then drive to st. pete to see protest the hero and then on friday, i get to go see murder by death and william elliot whitmore. i'm also going to try and stop by the aveda institute and cut my hair cut and colored. i'm not sure yet.
lots of homework, lots of stuff to do. very busy me but very good.
i babysit five days next week, which is awesome, because it means i'm gonna have fat pockets for a bit but i'm also going to three concerts next week. on thursday, i'm going to see gaslight anthem at park ave for free and then drive to st. pete to see protest the hero and then on friday, i get to go see murder by death and william elliot whitmore. i'm also going to try and stop by the aveda institute and cut my hair cut and colored. i'm not sure yet.
lots of homework, lots of stuff to do. very busy me but very good.
Monday, October 13, 2008
Sunday, October 12, 2008
i am ashamed to say that i am actually excited to go senses fail in sebastian now on tuesday. i just found out, by the powers of wikipedia, that heath saraceno who was formerly in midtown is now in the band. that alone makes my trip worth it to me. oh, midtown and senses fail. how you remind me of my junior/senior year of high school. this is gonna be great.
overworked and overwhelmed, that is what i am. i go from being non-busy and non-social to being super busy and non-social. i'm working on the socializing aspect, though. i'm starting to go out more and hang out with more people, head downtown every week or two to go see a show or go dancing. easing back into it is better for me. people don't normally expect it from me but i'm painfully shy at times, i just mask it with a boisterous appearance.
this coming week is going to be a little nuts. i have a presentation and midterm on tuesday, followed by a mini roadtrip to take my grandpa back to his house and while i'm there, i'm going to see senses fail in sebastian, florida. why? because there is nothing else to do in sebastian, florida and this ought to provide some lolz. thursday night, i'm probably going to this party downtown called hands up orlando. i guess they're kind of like the misshapes of the city but it's two guys from my history of cuba class and they're pretty cool so i can venture out for them and some dancing with my sister and my best guy friend.
work's good but babysitting always is. four days this week. i just need like a vacation or a timeout to sit down and just marvel at the different crap i am managing to fit in. even now, i'm taking a break from cleaning the house before my mom comes home because it is her birthday and this is my job for the afternoon. in parting, i leave you with this just because looking at it makes me happy:
god, he is beautiful
this coming week is going to be a little nuts. i have a presentation and midterm on tuesday, followed by a mini roadtrip to take my grandpa back to his house and while i'm there, i'm going to see senses fail in sebastian, florida. why? because there is nothing else to do in sebastian, florida and this ought to provide some lolz. thursday night, i'm probably going to this party downtown called hands up orlando. i guess they're kind of like the misshapes of the city but it's two guys from my history of cuba class and they're pretty cool so i can venture out for them and some dancing with my sister and my best guy friend.
work's good but babysitting always is. four days this week. i just need like a vacation or a timeout to sit down and just marvel at the different crap i am managing to fit in. even now, i'm taking a break from cleaning the house before my mom comes home because it is her birthday and this is my job for the afternoon. in parting, i leave you with this just because looking at it makes me happy:
god, he is beautiful
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