list of the weeeeeeeeek

instead of socializing with the crap ton of people that are going in and out of my sister's house at warp speed, i have holed up in her bedroom to type out some random crap. i'm not in the best of moods today so i'm hoping that i can turn my emo little frown upside down and put a smile back on. besides, there's someone somewhere worse off than myself so i really can't be too bummed out. and so, onwards with the random list of the week.

- rocket fuel (the drink) sneaks up on you real fast
- walking in high heels while tipsy is a valuable asset and one of my new favorite skills.
- the orlando magic pwns everyone
- lebron james is overhyped
- i'm way too into basketball
- fire pits are awesome
- cuddle pillows are where it's at
- i miss my sister's kitty
- i'm going to buy her a leash and see if we can't teach her to walk on it
- i want to go fly in space
- it's nice to have a good support system when you're blue (da be de da be di)
- i love my best friend
- i hate getting shitty wake up calls
- i really hate crying, especially in front of other people
- my face looks like a tomato when i get upset
- i love belting out songs in my car on the highway by myself
- i'm glad i realized that before my trip to naples/miami in july
- i ought to be able to afford my feet tattoos by the end of june
- soap operas suck
- i like making lists

i feel slightly better now. all i need now is some lolcats and kitty cuddles and all is right as rain again. ballin'.

isdc

has definitely proven to be an interesting weekend.

the rest of this is to be determined later.

h8 h8 h8 h8 h8

my sister got into a sticky situation tonight. she called me to let me know that her best friend had taken her out to a trailer park in the middle of nowhere so that she could get a tattoo. not only was i mad that her friend had told me they were going elsewhere but i was fuming mad that my little sister was being endangered because of it. i wanted to yell until i was blue in the face when my little sister was finally brought home and her friend practically bolted. i'm just glad to see that she got home and got home safely but i'm still really angry that she was in danger at all.

then, to top it off, i got tagged in a note on the facebookz by a former boy interest of mine regarding sirens with the note that people tagged in it would understand why. i'm assuming he's calling me a siren because of how our situation played itself out and how the curiosity of each other lured us both in. it just sucks because it's like re-opening the same wound i had from him before. i'm fully over it but it's like another reminder of why we didn't work. i hate it because i over-analyze it all and what could have been done different but i know it wasn't meant to be.

seriously, what else could happen tonight to make it that much more maddening and confusing?

cough cough hack hack SNEEZEZZZZZZZZZ

it is going on day nine on me having this funky cough. last monday, i started feeling really tired and sore and then my throat started kicking in and feeling weird, too. the cough kicked in later that night and the migraine started the next day. tuesday, i felt like a truck ran me over. by wednesday, i was back to feeling like my normal groovy self except for this funky ass cough!

seriously. coughs? who knew that coughs would be so bad/distracting? it keeps me awake at night, it makes me feel miserable during the day. i keep coughing everywhere in every place. nyquil with cough syrup didn't help, regular cough syrup didn't work. cough drops? forget about it! i have the mutant cough of doom!

it got so bad that i actually ended up going to the doctor, which is saying a lot. i hate going to the doctor for myself. i prefer letting things run its course and it being done but not this time. i resorted to medical help and am now on a thirty-day medicine that's supposed to dry the cough right out of me. however, it also makes me wicked groggy, it makes me super thirsty and it makes my vision blurry. pros and cons, i guess. here's to hoping the cough of doom dies out sooner than later!

<3 kevin devine and brian bonz

at about a minute into this video, you see the bassist, ej, point to someone in the crowd and an arm raise up in a fist pump. that fist pump is me. this is proof for my dad that i indeed got called out during the show. boo and yah.

a story through gif files

the week before summer school is crazy. this kind of crazy:



people this past week have made me feel like this :



or this:



but things are all good and life in general makes me want to do this:



good times

can i just say

that i absolutely love winning ebay bids? i feel like a total asshole when i put in a high bid with only seconds to spare, knowing that i have just essentially shit in someone's cornflakes, because i end up winning and they end up losing. yet, i still can't help to gloat a little inside when i win my bids. this is what i look like after i win my ebay bids.



i can't help it, i am materialistic at times but this is a material world and i? well, i am a material girl.

music is such an integral part of my life. almost everything i do involves music somehow. everywhere i go, i have my ipod with me. i sing loudly and quite often off-key to songs on the radio in my car. i sing and dance in my bedroom and in my shower. music is just highly important to me.

a lot of the time, i tend to associate songs with people or with moments that have occurred in my life. most are positive things, some are what could be seen as negative. as i was driving home today, i slipped in a cd i have purposely avoided for a while because of the negative connotations i held of it. there is a song that reminds me of an ex, that we sang together in the car numerous times, that we danced to once, that he held my hand to when we saw it live. as the song came on and filled my car with the yelping notes and painful lyrics that talk about forgetting someone and how they're gone, i finally felt good about the song. i sang along with it loudly and felt happy. gone were the bad memories, i felt happy. i claimed the song back for positive things instead of negative.

wow, how lame.

and what, suckaaaaaaaaaaa

two days before i turn twenty-two. i was feeling really depressed about it for a while because of the whole i'm getting older, i haven't done everything i wanted to yet, blah blah blah. and then i realized that i'm only twenty-two. i still (hopefully) have a buttload of time ahead of me to do everything i want to fit in. it's no excuse to sit on my butt and do nothing but it did make me feel better. i'm happy with my life, as crazy as it is. the next few months are looking as if they're going to pan out into being awesome. just like this :



yeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah

i was going to talk about how freaky deaky my family is but instead, i feel like regaling the nonexistent readers of my blog about what i do when i can't sleep and have homework due.

so far tonight, in the span of four hours, i have
-danced around my bedroom
-cleaned half my room
-quickly abandoned that effort
-fit the contents of my backpack into my purse
-played with facebook
-played with twitter
-played with my fish
-not done my homework

epic

brb

in panama city for spring break until next sunday

the culmination of one of the roughest weeks of the semester is about to come to an end in two days. tonight, i have to babysit for the family that i normally do and for the one who got me started in my current job. i love both of them and their kids so much so i don't mind doing it at all. however, i still have to study for my other half of my french midterm and write a five page paper on women in christianity and whether they were oppressed or liberated and then i need to study for the short answer portion of that midterm. I'm not worried because i know that i'll be able to get it all done and pass it.

i keep looking to my friday plans to make myself truck through the rest of my week because william elliott whitmore is coming and all i can say to that is :

no update, just a yummy gif(t)

things that irk me

-people who go into my room without permission
-said people who then take, touch or rearrange things so that i either fall, trip, break or lose
-drivers who don't do the limit
-the word fork
-the octo-mom
-not having enough time in one day to do what i need to and get some good sleep

i am not having a good day with patience. however, lady gaga gif files help.

lil wayne

i blame the basketball team at ucf for this latest addiction of mine. they play lil wayne like no one's business to get the team and the crowd hyped up. however, because i have heard the songs over and over, i have gotten them stuck in my head and in my itunes.

i'm so in love with weezy. sigh.

william elliott whitmore, part deux

ahhhh, the great love of my musical life. i found him on a fluke. i just wanted to know where that gravelly voice was coming from on the murder by death song 'until morale improves, the beatings will continue' and i knew that the singer, adam, wasn't capable of such a thing yet. doing a little research brought me to dear, sweet william elliott whitmore.

the first song of his i ever heard was 'burn my body' and i was just floored by the voice that came out of this man. it was like nothing i had ever heard before. i promptly downloaded everything of his that i could find and get my greedy little hands on.

i'm totally hooked now and his new album comes out on tuesday. he'll be in orlando march 6th and i will be there, dorking myself out for this magic man.

i love looking at crimelibrary.com. however, i find it very odd to go to the website and see the face of a girl i went to middle school with. she and her boyfriend are being charged with the murder of her father.

holy crap.

25 things about me that no one wanted/cared/needed to know

1) The word fork bothers me. I don’t like how it rolls off of my tongue when I say it or when other people say it. The k sound is just weird to me in that word.

2) Before I go to sleep, I have to make sure that the tag on my comforter is at my feet instead of my face, that my sheets are untucked so my feet can be free and I have to rub the side of my foot on my sheet until I fall asleep. I don’t think it’s anything like OCD, just habit.

3) When I walk upstairs, my ankles crack. I think it’s a genetic thing because my dad’s do it, too.

4) I procrastinate. Badly. Even now, I’m doing this instead of studying for my French test.

5) I worry constantly about the most trivial things in life. I worry about the bigger problems in my life and about the world. I just worry a lot.

6) Tim Burton movies are my biggest weakness. I think he’s crazy and brilliant and I just enjoy pretty much anything that man touches or does.

7) I don’t think I’ll ever get married. I don’t know if I’m willing to commit that much time to one sole person.

8) I really don’t think I’m that interesting. It’s making it really hard for me to pick 25 random thingies about myself.

9) I like gif files. They’re a bright spot of sunshine in a bleak day.

10) I really like tea now. It grew on me and now I can’t really go a day without brewing myself a nice little pot. I feel very formal when I drink it, too.

11) I don’t eat bananas. It’s a texture thing. I hate the way it feels in my mouth when I eat it and it squishes up all weird inside the roof of my mouth. Nasty.

12) I want to learn a load of languages. After French, I want to tackle Japanese. I think there’s something beautiful in being multilingual. The fact it also helps your chance of getting jobs is pretty sweet, too.

13) I’m actually shy. Most people don’t realize this about me because I seem very loud and boisterous but I push this out of myself to combat the shyness. I’d rather be a little loud and have someone notice than to be quiet and never be noticed at all.

14) I look for facial hair in men. Most people notice eyes or smile but me? I notice beards and mustaches. I think it’s the most masculine thing ever and it’s normally what makes me a sucker for a man.

15) I love musicals. The majority of my iPod is hardcore or indie music and then I have all my musical scores. It’s just nice to get lost in them.

16) I wish that unicorns could be a real animal because I would totally have one as a pet. I’m obsessed with them.

17) I’m also obsessed with pinup sort of things.

18) I like vintage everything. Clothes, accessories, collectibles. I want to get a tattoo of a 1920’s girl and another of a French Rococo art piece to showcase my love for it.

19) I love art. I’m not necessarily the best person at observing and understanding certain meanings or what was supposed to be interpreted from it but I definitely can appreciate the work that went behind it.

20) I would do anything for my friends or family. Once you’re in with me, you’re pretty much golden. I’m so protective of people and I act like a mama hen and I just refuse to let anything happen to the people I love.

21) I’m an insomniac. It’s something that has developed in the past few years but often times, I just have a difficult time sleeping so I spend my time cleaning or doing homework or putzing around on the internet.

22) I love celebrity gossip sites, especially Oh No They Didn’t.

23) I swear like a sailor. It’s very bad and I’m aware of it but a lot of the time, I don’t even realize that I’m swearing until after the bad word has popped out of my mouth.

24) My dad and I end every sentence to each other with the word man. It’s our thing right now but it probably won’t last forever. We switch up what we do all the time but he and I have certain similar quirks and sayings with each other. He is the best.

25) I am quickly becoming a basketball junkie. I love going to the school games and the Magic games. There’s something very magnetic about getting to scream at dudes chucking a ball around.

nothing extraordinary is happening in my life and i am totally and utterly happy with it. my life is very excellent right now. i go to classes on tuesdays and thursdays and actually enjoy them (for the most part), i work on mondays, wednesdays, fridays and the occasional saturday and sunday here and there with kids that i adore and enjoy watching grow up and learn new things. i generally get the weekends to myself to hang out with my friends and catch up on schoolwork and my reading. overall, my life is just pretty darn great right now.

i finally got myself a tea set, too, and have been enjoying proper cups of tea whenever i can sneak them in. it makes me feel very posh, not going to lie.

and i am leaving you with my gif of the week :



that is all!