Monday, June 29, 2009

recap on the crazy ass week

- i finally got my first tattoos

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- fell in love with rocky horror and the rich weirdos.
- motorboated fake boobs. let me just say, trannies are creative as fuck when it comes to making fake chachis.
- got told by a drag queen that i was fierce. felt amazing.
- actually dressed up a few times this week. felt pretty. liked the feeling. a lot.
- i have grown tired of the chase. always the chaser, never the chasee. waiting to see what happens.
- in regards to that last one, not rushing anything anymore and feeling good about it. waiting to see what life throws at me.

Wednesday, June 24, 2009


don't feel much like blogging so here's a swiped survey

- Available: yarp
- Age: 22
- Annoyance: bad drivers, being underestimated, unnecessarily rude people, indecisiveness
- Animal: burglar the cat dog
- Actor: simon pegg and nick frost all the way

- Beer: nasty as shit. give me the hard liquor please.
- Birthday/Birthplace: march 24, 1987 in oak lawn, illinois
- Best Friends: my-linh, lydia, amber, may, josh
- Body Part on opposite sex: beards beards beards
- Best feeling in the world: the kind of happy where you feel so giddy that your heart feels like it's going to burst open
- Blind or Deaf: blind because you can still feel and understand what things may look like but not being able to hear would drive me mad
- Best weather: five minutes before it storms and the wind is going crazy and it cools off a lot/ fall and winter weather
- Been in Love: not yet but still holding out
- Been bitched out?: lmao, all the time
- Been on stage?: yep!
- Believe in yourself?: depends on the dat
- Believe in life on other planets: not sure yet
- Believe in miracles: yes
- Believe in Magic: FUCK YES
- Believe in God: debatable
- Believe in Satan: i can think of a few people i call satan
- Believe in Santa: ho ho ho no
- Believe in Ghosts/spirits: not really until i see it
- Believe in Evolution: meh, impartial

- Car: hyaundai elantra
- Candy: cry baby extra sour tears are ballinnnnn
- Color: gray
- Cried in school: yup
- Chocolate/Vanilla: i love both
- Chinese/Mexican: chinese
- Cake or pie: pie
- Country to visit: i wanna go to iceland something fierce. i don't know why but i just really want to.

- Day or Night: night
- Dream vehicle: 1969 fully restore ford mustang. mmmmm.
- Danced: in my bedroom
- Dance in the rain?: with little kids
- Do the splits?: LMAO NO

- Eggs: worst. food. EVER.
- Eyes: hazel. they change colors depending on the situation. i am a walking mood ring.
- Everyone has a: heart.
- Ever failed a class? nope

- First crush: i still remember, will not name names for the life of me
- Full name: jillian leigh leonhardt
- First thoughts waking up: what the fuck did i just dream about?
- Food: my number one all time fave is chocolate pudding pie

- Greatest Fear: never finding love, being alone
- Giver or taker: giver
- Goals: i have way too many. i'm starting a bucket list.
- Gum: orbit all the way
- Get along with your parents?: the majority of the time
- Good luck charm: nothing

In guys/girls
Eye color: doesn't matter
Hair Color: dark colors
Height: any but normally prefer taller
Clothing Style: normally scenester style, tight jeans, band shirts, beards are the best accessory
Characteristics: intelligent, funny, romantic, affectionate, silly, sweet, quick thinker, assertive

- Hair Color: right now, dark brown. naturally, blonde.
- Height: 5'7
- Happy: most of the time
- Holiday: halloween
- How do you want to die: either in my sleep or doing something heroic
- Health freak?: yeaaaaaah right
- Hate: i don't hate, i strongly dislike

- Ice Cream: cherry garcia
- Instrument: none but i like to sing

- Jewelry: earring in the tragus, bar through my ear, multicolored gauges (i'm at a 4), hoop through my septum, ring on my middle finger, hair tie as a bracelet
- Job: nanny

- Kids: who knows?
- Kickboxing or karate: kickboxing
- Keep a journal?: this is as close as it gets

- Longest Car Ride: chicago to orlando when i was little, orlando to new york city last summer
- Love: everything
- Letter: q. it's so underrated.
- Laughed so hard you cried: damn straight. i have funny friends.
- Love at first sight: i believe in it.

- Milk flavor: white.
- Movie: stardust.
- Mooned anyone?: LMAO YEP AND FLASHED, TOO.
- Marriage: we'll see
- Motion sickness? no. sea sickness, yes.
- McD’s or BK: neither. team taco bell.

- Number of Siblings: 3
- Number of Piercings: 5, 4 in the ears and 1 in the septum
- Number: 13

- Overused Phrases: like, holy crap, fuck
- One wish: to be a mermaid for the day
- One phobia: large crowds

- Place you’d like to live: atlanta or canada
- Perfect Pizza: lazy moon with goat cheese and sundried tomatoes
- Pepsi/Coke: coke zero

- Quail: man?
- Questionaires: amuse me

- Reason to cry: boys
- Reality T.V.: is slightly an addiction
- Radio Station: if i have to, xl 106.7
- Roll your tongue in a circle? can do

- Song: murder by death's 'three men hanging'
- Shoe size: 11
- Salad Dressing: ranch
- Sushi: YUM
- Skipped school: yes
- Slept outside: not really
- Seen a dead body? yes
- Smoked?: mebbe
- Skinny dipped? yup
- Shower daily? prefer baths
- Sing well?: tolerable. my sister told me i have a pretty voice.
- In the shower? too much
- Swear?: fuck yeah
- Stuffed Animals?: in my closet and storage boxes
- Single/Group dates: much prefer single
- Strawberries/Blueberries: raspberries
- Scientists need to invent: cures for diseases and flying cars
- Time for bed: whenever
- Thunderstorms: scare me sometimes
- TV: travel channel and food network ftw
- Touch your tongue to your nose:? nope
- Unpredictable: everything

- Vegetable you hate: brussel sprouts
- Vegetable you love: sugar snap peas
- Vacation spot: anywhere with my friend

- Weakness: being too sensitive
- When you grow up: i wanna be in the circus
- Which one of your friends acts the most like you: lydia. she's my black twin.
- Who makes you laugh the most: all of them.
- Worst feeling: being heartbroken
- Wanted to be a model?: maybe for fat people clothes
- Where do we go when we die: hawaii
- Worst weather: any day that i can't go outside

-X-Rays: i've had too many to count

-Year it is now: 2009
-Yellow: submarine

- Zoo animal: penguins/monkeys. the monkeys fling poo, the penguins wear tuxedos.
- Zodiac sign: aries

1. Slept in a bed beside you? my-linh at isdc
2. Last person to see you cry? i think it was my-linh and maybe mike the day my uncle died
3. Went to the movies with you? my-linh, amber and juan to see 'up'
4. You went to the mall with? myself
5. You went to dinner with? the family
6. You talked to on the phone? my mom
7. Made you laugh? the boys

Tuesday, June 23, 2009

i have to get out of this funk. i put myself here and i ought to be able to get myself back out of it. until the meantime, gif files are good spot of brightness.


especially that one


epic fail on my part apparently.

i give up.

Thursday, June 18, 2009

babbling about things since it was a crap day

everyone has something that they turn to when they want an instant moment of gratification and to find comfort in. on cold days, people turn to hot cocoa and fires and snuggly blankets and soup. these are the things i go to when i need/want to find instant comfort.

- my cuddle pillow. i have one pillow that i sleep holding on to because it makes me feel better to fall asleep holding onto something. i have been made fun of for this but it helps me sleep faster and sleep better.
- my black navy shirt. this thing is so threadbare that there are holes worn into it and it's practically become see-through. it was one of my dad's old shirts from when he was still in the navy and it's one of my favorite possessions.
- my nightgowns. i have two that i switch between, a black silk one and a pink and gray cotton one. they're so soft and cuddly that i just feel better when i'm in one of them and lounging around.
- the cat. no matter how bad my day has been, the cat has a way to make me feel better. it could be the fact that as soon as i get in my room, she jumps up on me and nuzzles me or her licking me or her just sleeping near me. she has quickly become my favorite thing.

it's so silly but these are really the material things that make me feel better. my friends....that's a whole other blog post altogether.

Monday, June 8, 2009

bath routines, oh boy!

this is so true, even if mine is more a bath thing than a shower thing. when i take a bath, i am very specific in how i have to accomplish all of my tasks. first, i make sure the water is hot but not too hot or else i look like a boiled lobster. then, the running water gets a big squirt of bubbles and i soak for a little while. next is hair washing and conditioner. the conditioner then stays in my hair for the remainder of my tub time. next is face washing and then a face scrub after that. after that, face mask that stays on the rest of the time, too. shaving necessary body parts is next. and after all of that, i have to turn the shower on to rinse out the tub, scrub and loofah my bod and rinse out the conditioner and massage the face mask off. the worst part is, i don't really like to deviate it from it that much.

sigh, i really am girly sometimes.