things that irk me

-people who go into my room without permission
-said people who then take, touch or rearrange things so that i either fall, trip, break or lose
-drivers who don't do the limit
-the word fork
-the octo-mom
-not having enough time in one day to do what i need to and get some good sleep

i am not having a good day with patience. however, lady gaga gif files help.

lil wayne

i blame the basketball team at ucf for this latest addiction of mine. they play lil wayne like no one's business to get the team and the crowd hyped up. however, because i have heard the songs over and over, i have gotten them stuck in my head and in my itunes.

i'm so in love with weezy. sigh.

william elliott whitmore, part deux

ahhhh, the great love of my musical life. i found him on a fluke. i just wanted to know where that gravelly voice was coming from on the murder by death song 'until morale improves, the beatings will continue' and i knew that the singer, adam, wasn't capable of such a thing yet. doing a little research brought me to dear, sweet william elliott whitmore.

the first song of his i ever heard was 'burn my body' and i was just floored by the voice that came out of this man. it was like nothing i had ever heard before. i promptly downloaded everything of his that i could find and get my greedy little hands on.

i'm totally hooked now and his new album comes out on tuesday. he'll be in orlando march 6th and i will be there, dorking myself out for this magic man.

i love looking at crimelibrary.com. however, i find it very odd to go to the website and see the face of a girl i went to middle school with. she and her boyfriend are being charged with the murder of her father.

holy crap.

25 things about me that no one wanted/cared/needed to know

1) The word fork bothers me. I don’t like how it rolls off of my tongue when I say it or when other people say it. The k sound is just weird to me in that word.

2) Before I go to sleep, I have to make sure that the tag on my comforter is at my feet instead of my face, that my sheets are untucked so my feet can be free and I have to rub the side of my foot on my sheet until I fall asleep. I don’t think it’s anything like OCD, just habit.

3) When I walk upstairs, my ankles crack. I think it’s a genetic thing because my dad’s do it, too.

4) I procrastinate. Badly. Even now, I’m doing this instead of studying for my French test.

5) I worry constantly about the most trivial things in life. I worry about the bigger problems in my life and about the world. I just worry a lot.

6) Tim Burton movies are my biggest weakness. I think he’s crazy and brilliant and I just enjoy pretty much anything that man touches or does.

7) I don’t think I’ll ever get married. I don’t know if I’m willing to commit that much time to one sole person.

8) I really don’t think I’m that interesting. It’s making it really hard for me to pick 25 random thingies about myself.

9) I like gif files. They’re a bright spot of sunshine in a bleak day.

10) I really like tea now. It grew on me and now I can’t really go a day without brewing myself a nice little pot. I feel very formal when I drink it, too.

11) I don’t eat bananas. It’s a texture thing. I hate the way it feels in my mouth when I eat it and it squishes up all weird inside the roof of my mouth. Nasty.

12) I want to learn a load of languages. After French, I want to tackle Japanese. I think there’s something beautiful in being multilingual. The fact it also helps your chance of getting jobs is pretty sweet, too.

13) I’m actually shy. Most people don’t realize this about me because I seem very loud and boisterous but I push this out of myself to combat the shyness. I’d rather be a little loud and have someone notice than to be quiet and never be noticed at all.

14) I look for facial hair in men. Most people notice eyes or smile but me? I notice beards and mustaches. I think it’s the most masculine thing ever and it’s normally what makes me a sucker for a man.

15) I love musicals. The majority of my iPod is hardcore or indie music and then I have all my musical scores. It’s just nice to get lost in them.

16) I wish that unicorns could be a real animal because I would totally have one as a pet. I’m obsessed with them.

17) I’m also obsessed with pinup sort of things.

18) I like vintage everything. Clothes, accessories, collectibles. I want to get a tattoo of a 1920’s girl and another of a French Rococo art piece to showcase my love for it.

19) I love art. I’m not necessarily the best person at observing and understanding certain meanings or what was supposed to be interpreted from it but I definitely can appreciate the work that went behind it.

20) I would do anything for my friends or family. Once you’re in with me, you’re pretty much golden. I’m so protective of people and I act like a mama hen and I just refuse to let anything happen to the people I love.

21) I’m an insomniac. It’s something that has developed in the past few years but often times, I just have a difficult time sleeping so I spend my time cleaning or doing homework or putzing around on the internet.

22) I love celebrity gossip sites, especially Oh No They Didn’t.

23) I swear like a sailor. It’s very bad and I’m aware of it but a lot of the time, I don’t even realize that I’m swearing until after the bad word has popped out of my mouth.

24) My dad and I end every sentence to each other with the word man. It’s our thing right now but it probably won’t last forever. We switch up what we do all the time but he and I have certain similar quirks and sayings with each other. He is the best.

25) I am quickly becoming a basketball junkie. I love going to the school games and the Magic games. There’s something very magnetic about getting to scream at dudes chucking a ball around.

nothing extraordinary is happening in my life and i am totally and utterly happy with it. my life is very excellent right now. i go to classes on tuesdays and thursdays and actually enjoy them (for the most part), i work on mondays, wednesdays, fridays and the occasional saturday and sunday here and there with kids that i adore and enjoy watching grow up and learn new things. i generally get the weekends to myself to hang out with my friends and catch up on schoolwork and my reading. overall, my life is just pretty darn great right now.

i finally got myself a tea set, too, and have been enjoying proper cups of tea whenever i can sneak them in. it makes me feel very posh, not going to lie.

and i am leaving you with my gif of the week :



that is all!

first day of spring semester

today was the first day back. i think i technically have two semesters left before i graduate with a bachelor's in history. i'm in the process of looking into what to do after graduation (getting a real job, going to grad school, being an adult, etc). basically all of the scary stuff that i really don't want to deal with yet. however, this is going to be a busy semester with a lot of work but it's looking to be really good. here is the breakdown.

early modern ireland- my first class, 10:30 to 11:45. my professor gets a lot of haters and does talk about them but this guy has changed the way i look at school. he makes you think for yourself and refuses to spoonfeed his students, which is how i think classes should be taught. he also makes me laugh when he name drops warren zevon. it'll also be great to see the new kids squirm when he picks on them to give answers.

women and christianity in antiquity and middle ages- 12 to 1:15. there are a lot of kids i know in this class, which is good. i cannot understand the teacher when he speaks, which is not good. this class is going to have a LOT of reading but i think overall, it's going to balance out and be tolerable.

french language- 1:30 to 2:45. our professor wasn't even here today, which amused me. our book costs 200 bucks, which is not good. i'm excited for this because i really do want to learn how to speak french but i know that i'm going to have to work really hard at it.

modern japan- 3 to 4:15.this class holds the potential to be really fucking awesome. i love japan and the history that lies behind the country and our teacher is pretty cool, a little hard to understand, but cool. there's about 50 kids in the class, which ought to be whittled down soon, but it holds a lot of potential.

that is the basic gist of my school schedule and i'm excited to see what happens with it.

brb until wednesday. going up to atl to see the georgia bestie and to gallavant around town. so far, the set plans are shopping in hipster district galore, food pigouts, world of coca-cola and casey jones/this is hell/evergreen terrace saturday night.

HELLZ YESSSSSS

stressorama

finals are this week and while my stress level is normally all around out of hand, it's being pushed through the roof this week. my thing right now is trying to ignore it and not worry too much but being a natural born worrier, it's very hard to do.

after my last final thursday, the fun of the break begins. thursday night, i get to have dinner with friends i haven't seen in a while due to varying lives. friday is dim sum and we the kings with my-linh and my little sister. saturday, i leave for atlanta until the 17th and on the 19th, my-linh and i are throwing a vip party at howl at the moon. it makes me feel special for an iota of a second to know i get to be vip for once.

life is generally good right now aside from the crazy amount of stuff and stress but it's all good in the neighborhood.

guilty pleasure #1

i love ebay. i love it so much more than anyone could ever know. i don't have a credit or debit card because i know that if i did have one in my possession, internet shopping would easily put me into debt and ebay would be the primary culprit. the random mish mash of everything on the site keeps me occupied for hours and the fact that i have about ten stores saved to my favorites that i check every few hours just to see if new stuff has been put up says a lot about my obsession.

the vintage stuff on it gets me.

the deals get me.

ebay gets me.

such a guilty pleasure.

i'm a teapot, letting off my steam

in my opinion, i think that everyone has someone in their life that they just can't seem to stay away from. no matter what happens and how far away you are from them, how long it's been without talking to them, you can always slip right back into the same old routine with them and feel like it's been five minutes when it could have been years.

i know who that person is for me and i know it's not the best thing for me to keep going back. it's been close to four years now that we've been playing this back and forth game and every time i get sucked back into it, i always end up being hurt. i don't even know if he realizes what he does to me or the effect that he has on me or that i always end up falling for him but it sucks every time because i tell myself that things will change and they never do.

he's coming back around again and i feel myself wanting to revert to the old pattern but i'm tired of it. i'm tired of the tears that i always end up shedding, the pain i always feel and it's all my own doing, it's all my own fault that i let myself get like that. so now, things are going to change.

i've finally realized that i need to put my priorities first, at least in some form. i'm protecting myself and not allowing myself to revert to old ways and not slipping into the way things were. i can have him as a friend but nothing more. i know this now after a lot of soul searching and conversations with friends. it's for the best and although it sucks a little, i know it wouldn't be a healthy thing for me to keep reverting to this pattern.

so, there is a person in our lives that we always seem to find coming back in and out, over and over, but only we're the ones who decide in what aspect we allow them in. and for me, i've finally decided to set my foot down. and i feel better for it.

i prefer blogging in bullet points. mind you, they always end up being massively elongated bullet points but it seems to be my style so here goes the random bullet point bloggy bits of boring information for the past few days.

- ice skating on a lumpy rink is not the best thing your school can provide. i have the scraped up arm and bruised pelvis to prove this point.
- they need to make mini zambonis for mini ice rinks.
- i want to be paid now so i can buy a yo gabba gabba shirt from hot topic. best kids show ever.
- i'm addicted to twitter like no one's business now. i had once proclaimed that i would never jump on that bandwagon but i have and i do not want off.
- the betsey johnson outlet store is the best thing i have ever seen. even better is that the salesgirl has me in her book now so i get notified of sales before the public.
- victoria's secret love spell is the best scent created by man.
- all cupcakes should come with a pudding center. it makes the whole confection that much cooler in my book.
- boys create a crapload of unnecessary drama without even meaning to half the time. i generally dislike the majority of them at the moment.
- i have become a hermit in my own household due to insane family members. i hate leaving my room just to pee because i'll get bombarded by the questioning squad of whether or not i need anything. i'm 21, i think i know how to get a glass of water by now, thaaaanks.

i think that about covers it

random bits

-i like spiral notebooks. they keep all my thoughts and ideas neatly bound
-grapes are a food of opportunity
-jank is a fun word
-basketball sucks on tv but is awesome to watch in person
- just because you can wear something doesn't mean that you should
- i have nothing better to write about today so this is filler

i don't feel much like blogging today but still felt that i needed to write something. what i really want to say, i can't bring myself to say in a public forum like this so it stays in my notebook.

it's hard to express how i really feel sometimes. it's how it is for everybody.

today is a case of the blahs.

insomnia is a crap thing. wanting to sleep and not being able to is horrible. i've had sporadic spells of this off and on for the past few years due to schoolwork and general life throwing my sleeping patterns and my body out of whack. i have gotten back into another jag of not being able to sleep until 3, 4, 5 in the morning and then sleeping either too little or too much.

i think that the worst part about not being able to sleep is that with nothing else to do, my mind starts to wander and it's not necessarily a good thing. it's not that i'm thinking bad thoughts, it's just that i have about fifty million things flying around in my head at once that crash into each other and run a muck and create all of these different tangents that create more thoughts and when that happens, i normally am in bed with no notebook around me to write any of it down to try and make sense of.

my thoughts and ideas are nothing new, i know. everything i possibly think of has probably already been presented somewhere by someone in some manner but with everything crashing around here all the time, it's hard to think straight. i need notebooks to carry with me to write down everything i think or hear or see or what strikes me. hell, i need stock in that.

even now, the lack of sleep is bringing about the crazy talk. lolcat time to fit the mood.

halloween. my favorite holiday of the year. but costuming is an issue now. a vast majority of the adult costumes are either too kiddy or too slutty for my tastes. i can't gallavant around town in a bikini and fishnets. i'll look like britney spears at the vma's, a chubby trainwreck. hmm, possible costume idea.

anyway, i digress. so what is a girl to do? my first costume idea might possibly fall through because i'm still waiting for a dress to be sent in the mail that i can use and the backup plan, as of now, is to be katy perry. that damn katy perry. well, if i have to rely on it, at least i can make up good parodies.

lolhamster tiem.

random bits

sleep is my friend and my enemy. groggy all day and now i'll be up all night. rad.

i'm thinking of dying my hair again. i change hair color a lot.

homework is the devil.

i leave you with a puppy.

sometimes, you have the kind of nights that make you feel really good about life. last night was one of them.

when i got to backbooth, i ran into two friends of mine that i haven't seen in probably a year of two, jay and gabe. so we hung out during the show and what a show, it was.

the first band was this group called j roddy and the business. the bassist alone had my attention with his pornstache and his long, curly hair. i was like a horse with blinders on for their set, just mesmerized by this guy. decent music, hilarious set but it was unintentionally so, which makes it that much better.

next was william elliott whitmore and holy lord, was he fantastic. he did a few songs just singing, no instruments and then he busted out his banjo and his guitar. he also debuted some new songs from his next album and by far, my favorite is going to be 'johnny law'. he finished up and found out he still had twenty minutes so he took requests and i hollered for him to play 'take it on the chin', which is my favorite of his songs. he started playing it and halfway through, he realized that he forgot how it went so he had to get help from people. amazing.

after him was murder by death. they wore robot costumes and adam thurla, the lead singer, told the worst robot jokes i have ever heard. but they played the best setlist possible with songs from all of their albums and some of my favorite.

i do think the highlight of my evening, though, was meeting william elliott whitmore while he was drunk as hell and him continuing to offer to buy me drinks with me politely refusing. great guy, lots of fun and a great hugger but very persistent.

i had such an amazing night last night and i'm so glad that i felt decent enough to go. i'm even wearing the shirt i bought last night because i'm trying to hold this feeling a little longer. i wish i could go to shows for a living. what a life that would be.

oh, just for the lolz. here's a cat macro.

william elliott whitmore

william elliott whitmore. how i love thee. your soulful voice. your tattoos. the love you have for your podunk state of iowa. the passion and pain we can hear in your voice when you sing. i can't wait until i finally get to see you tonight and enjoy your music in person instead of through my dinky ipod headphones or the shaky sound system in my car.

oh, and murder by death.



you're not too shabby either.

so today was my shopping trip because a) i like shopping by myself and b) i wanted new stuff. let me just say, this stuff i found at target from soap and glory cosmetics is my new favorite thing.



it's supposed to firm your skin and rid you of cellulite but even if it doesn't accomplish its purpose, i'm going to keep buying it because it makes my skin super soft and it leaves your skin tingly and cool, which is nice. a plus for you, soap and glory gel stuff.